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Saturday, December 2nd, 2006
3:09 am
i screamed to loud tonight, i cant feel my throat. my ears are imploded. i love hvska
Tuesday, November 28th, 2006
10:34 pm
come on up to the house
i realize my hobbies and interests are null and void. I cant really point the blame at anybody expect me....i mean its my life aint it? Maybe i should just stop being into things so much. Then again i dont really have an addictive personality. who knows. And then i have this feeling. well more of a thought. and i really dont want to have this thought, casue i know its so trivial. its nothing to get upset or worked up about. definately not, but i still feel this way. i guess i wont feel better until i get out and say it. I went to the plays, I went 2 out of 3 nights, and then i went both times to the next one, and i went to 2 homecomings. I had fun, but im just saying i went to both. that makes me a pretty devoted....boyfriend. i like to think that i always plan ahead and make sure i can make it to everything of hers. i dont do many things. well important things at least. i've had this show booked for months. been talking about it for months. Tragedy struck, we couldnt play. im still upset over what happened, not the fact that we cant play.....anyway, this is still my thing. i helped book this. im selling tickets and everything....then something comes up. her haircut. cant go, cant go, cant go....."find out for me" nothing definate. but i mean, c'mon. ive been talking about this for months. then again i told you i shouldnt be getting upset, but i am. why do i lie? why cant i just speak my mind. why? "its ok if you cant go" "i know"...."i know"....so what does that mean? does it mean that its ok to miss this casue its not a big deal to me? well i guess i hold nothing sacred......fuck
Tuesday, November 21st, 2006
1:15 pm
oh so patient with your situation
you sit in the station while others roll by

while you were waiting for this moment not to happen
while you were praying that this day would never come
while you were waiting for this moment not to happen
here comes that moment
Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
6:02 pm
i'd like to think i would, you know i'd like to think i would
blah this is my live journal blah
no one elses but mine.

and the days, and the days they seem like forever
but forever isn't ever enough
i'd like to sing a song
please swear you won't be long
i'll try not to be long but i don't want to get this story wrong
Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
11:38 pm
get better
tyler please get better soon man. we are all a wreck. we all love you buddy...
Thursday, October 5th, 2006
2:42 pm
i'll be charlie and you can be my angels....except you..you be bosley
I can't eat, I can't sleep
been lying on the bunk all week
yes this charge I can't beat
is keeping me off the street
sent me down one more year
just waiting for the papers to clear
oh it seems like I'm just doin' time without you

locked me down in the hole
to polish my tarnished soul
yes the filth and the grime
have opened up my mind
yes I know I deserve
the sentence that's being served
yes it seems like I'm just doin' time without you

I've told the truth, confessed my crime
kept my behavior good, read the good book line by line
yes my lesson is learned
I'm ready to be returned
but it seems like I'm just doin' time without you
Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
8:42 pm
hello again its nice to see that i [dont] exist...
...in a world where people shift....

i hate not existing. it sucks. whatever, there is nothing i can do anyway. maybe besides being more charismatic but i cant, its just not who i am.


Current Mood: sad
Sunday, October 1st, 2006
10:32 am
crazy beautiful
westbound Trains new album is pretty awesome. I bought the movie crazy/beautiful for kim last night and we watched it. Im glad to got to see her yesterday.

Current Mood: tired
Sunday, September 24th, 2006
9:00 pm
ya ya ya
wtf. today has sucked really bad and this night has even been better.
happy 8 months and a day. at least someone cares
Sunday, September 17th, 2006
11:19 am
This weekend has been awesome so far. Friday was great because surprisingly Kim didnt have to work, so we got to hang out for a long time =). And yesterday was even better! We went to the mall and shopped then went to her house for a little, then got some chinese food at my house. Then just hung out all night, and sat outside and talked until 1. It was an awesome day. Im scared about the whole college thing, but kim makes me feel better. I just gotta figure it ou soon. Well sunday is going to suck, I probably wont even get a chance to see kim. =(. i Love that girl

Current Mood: happy
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
9:09 pm
oy oy oy....oi oi oi
argh/ i was starting to think this day wasnt half bad...but it actually turned put to be a shitty fucking day. only good thing was seeing kimberly, casue all the bad stuff went away. and just so everyone knows its my life and i'll do what i want. and yes i'll be close to kim. so yea thats that.

Current Mood: busy
Friday, September 8th, 2006
9:17 pm
he told me once
this seems way to familiar....and not in a good way. Its the same situation, just with new people. this time im on the defending side...i dont know what to do. i guess there is nothing i can do......im not quite sure how to feel right now.....i suppose im a fool, but at least i can prepare for it....i hope.....

Current Mood: depressed
Monday, September 4th, 2006
2:39 pm
lat night was so fun. thats all i have to say. Im glad everyone came. i kmow who my true friends are for senior year. i Love you all....
Monday, August 28th, 2006
12:00 pm
how much sleep does a person need?

Current Mood: bored
Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
11:07 am
7 months..or 8 months...or 16 years?
so today is our "offcial" 7 month anniversary. unoffcially its closer to 8 months. For the past few days , like the last couple days of vacation and the first days i got home i felt weird. idk how to describe it. for some reason i keep on acting like an asshole. Whenever I wasn't with kim, i would act like that. idk why. But today I feel better. I mean i miss that gal (i always miss her we she isnt around), but I feel back to normal, maybe even better than normal. These last 7-8 months have been the been the best of my life. i know i say that evey month, but its true. Every month im with her things continue to be perfect, and somehow get even better. Everyday I fall more in Love with her. Its not saying i dont already Love her as much as I can, but its just that I grow a little bit each day, i guess my soul grows a little bit and that makes more room for me to Love her. Everyday im with her, the further and further I fall. Its suppose to be this way. I've known this girl for like 16 years, and this is how is suppose to be. No doubt in my mind. I Love this girl

Current Mood: happy
Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006
12:37 pm
im so scared to lose her
Its true, thats my biggest fear. I Love her so much, i couldnt lose her. It would destroy me. She id everything to me. and thats the God's honest truth. i've never been more sure of anything in my life
10:45 am
you already know
life is so amazing. I Love Kimberly so much. no matter what happens i always. I couldnt even explain. No one could understand how i feel about her

Current Mood: loved
Wednesday, August 16th, 2006
3:04 pm
I WANT TO SEE HER NOW! i want to hold her and kiss her and gah i Love that girl so much
Thursday, August 10th, 2006
5:34 pm
so Kim's been home, and this past week has been amazing...but tomorrow im leaving....tonight will be the last time i see her for a week. I hate this. I dont want to do this again. I hate it. I just wanna be with her. I Love her so much. I hate being away from her. its horrible. She is so good to me....

Current Mood: frustrated
Sunday, August 6th, 2006
10:49 am
genius of King Django
The Moon in the sky, lights up your eyes like the backdrop of Heaven
And this tune I describe, girl, it could match your beauty never
And baby, I still haven't seen you
Though maybe one day I will rise
To find you by my side

The Sun greets the dawn to find me thinking about your treasures
And by night I dream on, on to the day that i might taste your pleasures
But baby I still haven't seen you
Though maybe one day I will rise
To find you by my side

Current Mood: anxious
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